Being prepared didn't keep my legs from shaking when I did my practice exits in the mock up door. I knew most beginners were nervous, but this was silly.
That being said, on the plane ride I was delighted that my fear level had gone down since the previous ride. I was still scared, but it wasn't the vicious terror that tormented me earlier. And for the first time, I exited without screaming. It was almost fun.
At first things went great. Soon the instructors let go and I was flying on my own. Gosh, I thought. I'm actually doing this.
Then came the stupid thoughts:
The instructor pulled for me.
I was livid. How could I have been so stupid?
It was arguably the easiest, most obvious and most important move, and I'd blown it.
My inner critic let me have it:
I'll admit it's pretty weird up there. An alien environment:
Update: (Oct 2, 2011) I repeated level three. Click here to find out what happened.